If there is one thing that has been consistently good in my life, and I mean without the slightest falter, it’s my relationship. School, my job, and even my social circles have been negatively impacting my mood and bringing me down for weeks now.
I never let this happen and I feel very out of control. I don’t like it.
Every Friday when I feel least deserving of any acts of kindness; John comes to rescue me from the reoccuring nightmare I call my life. I feel guilty for this mood and my shattered sense of self. I’m normally the most optimistic person, but I feel like lately I’ve been letting this world weigh too heavily on me. I’m grateful for someone who is so willing to put my pieces back together.
However many times I come to my wits end, I know I can put my faith in the advice and guidance of someone who genuinely cares about my well being. Support alone is an act of love I’ve yet to be able to put into words. I’m not just saying that. I really mean it. I write about all the ways I find myself loving him regularly, yet no amount of selective adoring adjectives capture how intensley I feel.
I haven’t been able to see very clearly these some odd weeks, but I see him. When you come across someone whose very presence feels like magic, you keep them close.
I wish I had an archive of all the different themes I’ve developed on this site over the past three years. I just want to see the evolution of my blog and all the different phases it went through!
3:20 am and I’m pulling an all nighter for my final exam of finals week so you’ll have to cut me some slack on being so nostalgic.
Look up at the stars: the 2013 Geminid meteor shower will peak on the nights of December 12-14.
The show starts at mid-to-late evening and ends at dawn. No matter your location, Geminid meteors will fall most plenty after midnight on December 13 and 14. (More information)
These gifs are of the last year’s Geminid meteor shower, here's the full video.
these gifs are star trails and airplanes. taken during the geminids maybe, but there isnt a single meteor in these shots.
click through to the video if you want to see meteors.
correction: there are three faint meteor streaks in the top right gif .
tries to do things: becomes overridden with anxiety
doesn’t do things: becomes overridden with anxiety
Took a uni hiatus. Currently laying in bed texting a thousand texts and writing a hundred poems because this is who I am gotdamn it.
Finals week makes me forget that.
Laying in bed for two hours out of the day, just being awake and relaxing is vital to my life force.